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Saturday, June 02, 2012

Perhaps Because We Are So Used To Seeing Concerts...

so much,  they have lost their impact. On Monday there is one to celebrate the Queen's Jubilee but the line up and if what I have heard the artists are going to sing if reported correctly the other day by a radio presenter, we've heard it all before.

I think the best two days are the flotilla of boats and ships on the Thames and the thanksgiving service at St.Paul's Cathedral in London and the fly past later on over Buckingham Place. On Sunday and Tuesday.


What A Horrible Day...

not helped because I forgot my mobile phone for getting a taxi home...the normal payphone in Tesco's was out of order and the one that patches you through to a taxi firm worked but I had to wait over an hour to get one.

I don't know if it is the cold(I didn't think it was that bad!)Is it something else? The tips of my fingers and thumbs have gone numb. It's a most peculiar feeling hitting a keyboard with no feeling. No pins and needles down my arms. Been that way for approx 25 minutes...not going to panic though...

I'm having a rest and seeing if getting warm helps...

Update:It's taken nearly an hour but I am starting to get some feeling back!

It could be Raynaud's Disease and considering the problems I can have getting around my immune system attacks my kidneys and thinks that they are not mine...I have a lot of symptoms that match up with Rheumatoid Arthritis

Often getting comfortable in bed is a real problem...

A month or two back they said I had some fancy problem with my bloods that usually means problems with stiff joints...I'll have to try and remember what it is and look it up...

Talking Of Expenses...

Of course its all relative. But an article on Yahoo caused a bit of a stir when a reporter mentioned what she felt she could not give up even if money was tight. But the impression given suggests that what she sees as essential many of us would but the difference is that many of us would feel the same but as our budget is probably much less we probably would not have the luxury to decide and it would be made for us...

The Expenses You Would Not Give Up...

I Don't Buy...

The National Lottery tickets and haven't for many, many years. I long since gave up using the same numbers week after week as I decided the one time I perhaps forgot to buy a ticket, it would be my luck that my numbers would be successful.

I don't buy the Euro millions tickets that often either as annually that's going cost...£312. But if you are going to try and win a reasonable sum that's still the one to go for especially when it rolls over...I also just do a lucky dip, then forget the numbers...

Then again, if I save a couple of taxi rides my tickets are paid for...

If I won millions I would do a lot of good with my money charity wise and I have a few people on here I would like to share my good fortune but you know all I really would like to win is enough to tell the Government to "Stuff" their benefits and stop jumping through  all the hoops I have to get it, the stress that it may be withdrawn and that I lose a roof over my head.

I don't take it because I want to,  I take it because of circumstances some on here know what they are but contrary to what some who comment on my blog think, I do keep some of medical details private...

I would be happy(wouldn't we all)to win enough to be able to put my heating on when I wish, the same with electric, eat a healthy diet and if still renting as opposed to owning property to be able to pay the rent and community charge for the next say 25 years(assuming I last that long)you have to pick a figure out of thin air possibly a little longer if I need to have care in the home or go into a dreaded nursing home...so lets say 30 years(rent and community charge that would be approx £210,000)If we then say £2,000 annually for electric and gas that adds another £60,000 so we're already up to £270,000.

Now what should we add on for food and some little luxuries to make life worth living?

If the TV license remains at the same rate but allowing that when I reach 75 years age I may get it for free there's another £2,490, if I can still be bothered with the internet and phone that adds approx £10,000 so we're now talking of £282,490 and I still haven't factored in the cost of food yet nor the odd item I may have to buy when something needs replacing or repairing, possibly clothes and an odd CD or download here and there...

What's an acceptable spend on food weekly for a single person? If you did £20 a week that would come out at around £1,400 annually so that adds £42,000 so we've already reached £324,490 and finally what about paying for my care? I think I'd need probably approx £500,000 to be reasonably well off. And just maybe if I could have such an amount in savings I may get a little interest or as VQ mentioned perhaps I could invest a sum in something like Premium Bonds and hope I could win some extra cash.

I don't that there are very many ordinary people with that kind of money behind them whether they've worked all their lives or not...it's rather frightening.

On the sums I have worked out on the back of an envelope, there's not even the chance to own your own home.

That's approx £16,500 per year...

No wonder with what most jobs really pay and the expenses incurred to travel to and from the venue and other things that get added into the equation is it any wonder people still have ask for help from the state? How many earn what is always trotted out in statistics that the average wage is £26,000 annually? How much tax do you pay on that £26,000?

Friday, June 01, 2012

I Don't Like Spiders And Snakes...

So goes the song.

Of course you can have a blind faith but then there is stupidity...

I don't think that I can add much to this story.

Pastor Killed In Rattlesnake Attack...

It's Still Cold And Dull Outside...

But it's not raining. I have finally made a start on putting the flowers into the containers...

I have done the hanging basket and filled it with Bizzie Lizzie's.

I have contacted the company that is doing the arrangements for the switchover regarding them turning analogue tv off and it becoming digital which happens in September.

I had to stop them sending letters out to Mum but asked if I had done all that I should to receive a service(my Sky box is now a Freesat box)so I should not receive any pay channels and that means most of the channels run by Sky but so far they haven't turned off what they should so I am still able to view everything for now...

When I said that I also have two tv's able to pick up Freeview they said there is nothing I need to do(unless the signal is poor and I need to replace the areal)

Now again, don't forget I did not buy the most expensive tv's and what I have has to last me for years. That because of the digital switchover soon my 30 year old tv won't be much use...and the second may pick up a TV signal but it's actually a computer monitor.

Later today, all being well, my computer man will come and put me some software onto the computer so hopefully I can record more things than I am able now(could be handy over the weekend of the Jubilee where programmes clash)

Then I may have a look out and get a few little things as I think some shops may be closed or have different opening hours over the Bank Holiday weekend.

The other night as I laid on my bed I realised that the swallows(or is it swifts)have returned as they do every summer, they live in the eaves of our houses. I never see them anywhere else just our few houses, the aerobatics that they get  up to when feeding on the wing, chasing after each other and the speed that they come out of their nests and back in without ever misjudging it is something to see...

Life goes on...

I don't know of any of the following can be adapted so one person can eat or drink the recipe's but I found the following site telling the virtues of Beetroot

I have all the gadgets to make a  lot of what they mention but it's more can you afford to do some of what is suggested...

Another Useless Survey/Experiment?

Or is it...

I know Mum never ever had a bad smell about her. Of course she washed and kept herself clean, used all the usual things like deodorant and perfume but never needed a lot of such things.

Now, I on the other hand perhaps because of my health problems and the very strong drugs that I take, they sometimes caused such a problem for me,| I also realised if I ate garlic, it actually caused a smell that comes through the pores of the skin. So those odourless garlic capsules are handy.

Could a serious medical condition be spotted by using smell, if it could, perhaps such an idea isn't such a daft idea. I remember reading stories in the past where it's been suggested that dogs can sometimes detect when someone has cancer.

And yet this particular experiment just seems to be concerned with deciding how old someone is by smell but  unless you don't see who is taking part, you know the age of someone by the way they look.

But if there is some truth in what they've found out, I guess in general the older we get we smell ok. The reason younger people may smell could be the obvious reasons(especially if it's a young man...)perhaps he's been to the gym, playing football or jogging etc...or if he's young and full of hormones it's a natural smell. Perhaps he needs to take more care of personal hygiene...and as the hormones drop and they get older and maybe don't do all those things young people do it settles down...

It still seems a bit pointless though...

Human's Can Smell Another's Age...

No Energy This Morning...

I have slept until a few minutes ago, had to take a painkiller to head off a possible headache, I feel a bit tender so I am not going to hurry about getting up. I only have myself to think about. I think I have been getting rid of excess water that has built up in my system as virtually every hour or so I have had to tootle off to the toilet and have a wee.

Hopefully, it will settle down as the morning goes on...

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Thinking About The Cost Of Food...

and what many household budgets are for many, many people in the UK. Of course a business has to make a profit but it perhaps depends more on whether the amount being charged is outrageous. We know that often stadiums where a big concert or sporting event is happening they can virtually charge what they like and chances are you'll be stopped from bringing your own in with you...

Some newspapers today have published the prices and what will be available for those attending the Olympics in London...I wouldn't pay it but then again, if I did it would make quite a dent in my budget, the only possible way would do so is as a one off but considering what people have paid for the tickets, what the travel expenses are and possibly you may have to stay in a hotel, as the companies are getting all that publicity by being connected to the event, you could suggest that prices could be much lower or even free...

Here's an article explaining all...

£13 For A Jacket Potato And A Pint..

To be fair I could find a few things on that menu that would fill me and I don't think are badly priced, it only starts to get expensive if you are planning on sitting down to a proper meal and we don't know how big the portions are going to be...they could be quite generous.

Here's Something To Cheer Us All Up...

BBC news is reporting that the Hubble telescope that has been giving us all those wonderful images of the universe that scientists now say that our's will clash with another which I assume means it's the end...we apparently have a little while yet...approx 4 Billion years!

Well that's if a natural disaster down here hasn't already seen us off. We all know sooner or later our sun will explode and eventually the world will stop turning and why should we believe "Us" human have a right to survive over all other species.

Others become extinct...As Frazer used to say in the TV Series "Dad's Army" "We're all doomed!"

Well, The Weather Has Returned To Normal As The Bank Holiday Arrives...

Cool, wet and cold...

I made the mistake of putting the clothes that I had washed and were almost dry on the washing line(ten minutes in the Tumble drier probably would've been enough to finish them off)so they got soaked. I am just leaving them out and if it takes days for them to dry so be it...I am not wearing or going through loads of clothes daily and when you've only yourself to please, what does it matter?

The latest weather forecast for London on Sunday and the flotilla on the River Thames suggests rain that may clear by the afternoon but it may remain cold 10c-12c(50f-54f)


I wondered what might happen on the final day of the Bank Holiday celebrating the Queen's Jubilee as there did not seem to be much going on but I think that there is a service of Thanksgiving at St. Paul's Cathedral so that should be quite special...

It won't be the same as being there but as VQ said watching on tv you'll see more, be warmer, less likely to be tired and it is difficult to sometimes get a good place to make your own...and sitting or standing for ages isn't good...And if you get caught short...

I too hope that the Queen is around for many years to come, there was a documentary on Radio 2 last evening at 10pm presented by the actress Celia Imrie "We Are Sixty!" and it came up about how long the Queen may live and about her "Genes"

I have checked, it is repeated again on Sunday at 7pm...

If you are reading this after that time you can catch it on line for a few days...if you are reading this perhaps after June 9th it's probably gone for good...

If Things Are Difficult...

and find that I am unable to use all the time I have regarding my Internet package, I can switch at anytime without penalty to a cheaper deal...Now, things may be tight budget wise in the future and if less money is coming in that may be an option worth considering. Besides I may even drop the TV license.

Well, the last day or two I had to make that call to Australia(an exception I know)but it cost me £7 but if I have to phone Mum's other relative in America a similar scenario could happen. Then with the mix up with my benefits and the landlord(I wasn't expecting that)I hope that too will be an exception but those calls ended up costing me £3 approx because I had to call outside of my agreed time for making calls and they are not open after 7pm.

Also 0845 numbers are chargeable. Well, it's cost me another £42 over the year(that's the equivalent of approx 11p a day)but I now can make calls anytime. Most calls to any UK landline will now be free(If I terminate the call before 60 minutes are up)I can redial...0800 numbers will mainly be free and that also includes 0845 numbers from now on. And should I have to phone abroad that will cost me but I will save 25% on such calls so that Australian call would have come down to £5.25, not much of a saving but it all adds up.

I could soon spend as much if using the mobile so that will now only be used to order taxi's when required if I am outdoors and I don't plan to use it for normal calls...so  I won't be texting much either.

I think I still have to pay for calls from a landline to a mobile so where possible I will avoid doing that. I will try and hang onto the £75 credit I have with the new package. That can be used towards chargeable calls and I can just let that reduce or top it up when I wish but in theory if I make calls the way I am supposed to that £75 will just remain there.

In theory it does mean if I am caught short one month I can still make calls and top up another time...so all in this year my broadband telephone and telephone rental has cost me...£198 and then £145 for the tv license so that's approx 94p a day...over the year its still a lot but then again that's 24/7 access to the Internet and tv...and as I said next year I may drop the TV so then it comes down to...54p a day and if I then go to the cheaper package for broadband that could reduce to 69p but of course it's slightly more expensive because I am paying a full year's worth of broadband and not being let off with six months...

If I threaten to leave they might to do a special deal.

The TV and Internet/telephone line rental without the deal I managed to get would now be costing me £1.20 a day so I have saved approx £95 over the year...

However, when I pay all that even if I am helped with rent and community charge, if I say my energy needs will cost me £1,500 annually)I will only have approx £60 to live on weekly which will have to pay for food and replacing/repairing of items that break down or come to the end of their usable life.

I think it can be that tight even if you are working...and it must be a struggle even living on a State pension...

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Has The UK Changed For The Worst?


I suspect if we took a broad sweep of the last 60+ years we'd say things have improved materialistically for many, we can never say for all. There will be advances in science and medicine. But working long hours, in many cases many of us no reason for having it longer have the time for our loved one's and sometimes we think that we can put that right by giving a gift of some kind instead of our attention.

We may have central heating and electric in all our homes but many of us are unable to afford to use it which defeats the idea of having it.

Of course times were tough and long hours were worked in the past and so its not necessarily a new problem but even I remember as I grew up we were promised a 40 hour or less working week, decent wages, earlier retirement and roughly you'd hopefully have a similar of time after you'd worked to do what you want to do and you could afford your retirement.

How has the country become worse? That's a difficult one, I think its more selfish than it used to be if looked at on a grand scale but when you actually talk to people on a one to one bases you realise that people do care. And many of us have similar concerns, for our loved ones, friends and their health.

Many of those that we do we hear in the media unfortunately are influenced by what they think they are hearing or because the media ignores a lot of the things that are happening and the genuine people who are suffering. Perhaps I am influenced but I suspect that I ask questions and don't take what I am told as gospel.

The other day the Telegraph or it might've been the Mail found an exceptional case where a family was getting a lot of help from the State so they were able to say look what they are being paid and they are not trying to do any work but within the rules of how long you can do voluntary work at least one member was working, the problem is a lack of jobs and one's that pay a living wage but then when a story like this is featured everyone is seen to be the same. And probably a lot of the information is missed, it becomes a sensational story.

It is then picked up by presenters doing phone-ins and it just snowballs and gets out of hand...and opinions are treated as fact. The media deals in big National events but often misses what life is like on a small scale for the individual. When they do those programmes that look back on the year that has just gone it will concentrate on disasters and celebrities.

You might ask why jobs pay such rubbish wages. I keep hearing that the average wage is £26,000 a year, I'm not sure what they are or where they are...I've never seen more than a few any where near that figure in the years I applied for work or looked at the vacancies being advertised.

The problem I can see with the survey this article refers to is that they have tried to tie it to the Queen and she has nothing to do with what society and politicians do, she is The Head Of State...a figure head but really no more than that!

The changes would still have happened even if she had not existed. Would they have been any worse had she not been there as a constant during difficult times, its difficult to say.

The same can probably said of most countries in the west especially and the austerity measures that have been brought in and most feel those who caused the problems are largely untouched, well if you already have more that's understandable, if you are already low down in the pecking order you'll be affected first.

Will I watch? I plan to but you know I may very well return to the radio coverage, I mean unless they are going to wait until dusk and have a massive firework display on Sunday we'll see boats going down the Thames but what are they going to do?

There is a concert on Monday I believe but again I can listen to the music...Really the celebration to commemorate the Queen's landmark boils down to those two events...Are the rest of you watching  it?  Especially if you live in the capital, will you follow it on tv or go to some event? Is it being looked at a bit with uninterest by the people of London a bit like the Olympics? As there seems to be some Royal event most years...

I know around here we've had notes put through the door suggesting there could be a kind of street party or an event in the local leisure centre but there doesn't seem much excitement and I think this survey suggests that few are planning on having an event to commemorate the occasion, the impression is that people will just have a get together with friends or family or go away for a few days and do their own thing! If the weather is good enough.

I keep hearing its a four day holiday and all kind of events are promised but I cannot see that much happening especially when we reach Tuesday and many are back at work by then...

Has The UK Changed For The Worst?

I Managed To Avoid Getting Too Down On My Birthday

In a way it's just another day...or it is now...

But the day is not over yet.

I slept well, my mind did not wander too much to sad matters...then I went downstairs early this afternoon and found two letters on the mat in the hall...

One was from my landlord...informing me that I am approx £500 in rent arrears. That this goes back as far as the end of April around the time Mum passed away. That my Housing Benefit had been suspended!

I'm still unsure why they left it almost 6 weeks before informing me so I could've sorted it all out sooner.

After having me upset and believing that I may lose the roof over my head, I managed to talk to the appropriate department at the council and it was a mistake and all is ok at this minute...also the money the landlord says they are owed had been sent over to them so someone somewhere has messed up!

The department I talked to said that they had sent me a letter about the mess up and it should've arrived here perhaps two weeks ago...it hasn't!

What could've made my Birthday not so good has been corrected and I am feeling much calmer again...

I shall  have a rest and then decide what to have for my Birthday Evening meal, I suspect it may be a pizza and salad...there's exciting for you...

It's definitely cooler today and I may have to think about putting something warmer on and perhaps an extra blanket when I go to bed...Now where are my hot water bottles?

Someone heard my story about Mum when I was shopping today(well I'd mainly gone out to get my prescription drugs and some milk)and tried to offer me £10 as a gift...I didn't take it but it was a lovely gesture...I wasn't offended that it was offered, I'm not proud and am always ready to accept help and suggestions. But you have to weigh a situation up...

How Did I Spend The First Hour Or Two...

Of my birthday?

On You Tube watching an old Jack Benny programme followed by a documentary about the great voice over artist/actor Mel Blanc.  You know the one, voice of Bugs Bunny, Daffy Duck, Sylvester, Tweety Pie...It's probably easier to ask who he didn't do! He shared my birth date...May 30th.

You know it's probably long since lost/damaged but perhaps nearly 30 years ago I received a letter and a signed photograph from Mel, at the time I must've mentioned how Dad loved his work and it was not long after losing him and Mel even said how sorry he was to hear of my father's passing.

It's amazing what you find on the internet...it was so interesting and as far as I am aware it has not been shown on tv over here.

I mentioned finding and wearing a signet ring Dad bought me I suspect when I was around 18/21 I forget which, and wearing Mum's pearl necklace as a keepsake(its not noticeable)and is hidden, we were never one's for wearing lots of jewellery but I have now found a ring Mum had been wearing which belonged to Dad but actually was originally his Father's ring so I have that too.

I suspect this is the only keepsake/family heirloom from that side of the family and could be 100 years old...I believe there is some story about my grandad wearing it though the first world war...I never knew or had a grandad in my life, only one grandma for that matter.

Well, it's almost 3am I guess I better think about getting some sleep...

Update:I awoke not so long ago and said "Good Morning World!" Watered some flower tubs(yes, at 5.30am)so I can plant some flowers later and then had a great big bowl of cereal with the usual mixture of fruit but added some grapes too. In fact there was so much fruit I wondered if there was room any cereal...and I still had a drink of milk afterwards...

Now I'm back on my bed ready for hopefully a few more hours sleep...

Happy Birthday To Me!

I sang Happy Birthday to myself and remembered how Mum would always sing it to me at the start and end of the day as I  did on her birthday...Thank you Mum x

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Thankfully I Don't Suffer Much With...

headaches and migraines but when I get them they really hurt. If I do, it usually affects one of my eyes but this morning even though I had slept well around 5am, I awoke with a really bad headache across the back of my head but remarkably the paracetamols and codeine that I took got rid of it much quicker than I thought it may...

It's a bit selfish but I can quite understand what that person I bumped into when walking to the supermarket the other day meant when he said how he misses his wife and how frightening it is too be ill and to be on your own...

If I have to pay for that emergency phone where you hit a button and they get the emergency services out if you are in trouble or help you if you've had a fall...I'll still get rid of it until I am given it for free again...I have access to the net, the phone and a mobile, if I can't summon help using one of those ways I really am in trouble...

I may also ask a couple of my neighbours if they don't mind me having their numbers to call in an emergency.

I may even give them a key to access my property...if they are willing to help in such a way...

When  I felt ok I managed to eat a lovely big bowl of cereal, fruit and semi skimmed milk...

They Only Cost Me £3 Per Tray...

To Mum's memory I managed to get a tray of Marigolds and Bizzie Lizzie's(Impatiens)and I will try and redo a couple of tubs and hanging basket and keep them fresh!

I'm going to do that on my birthday tomorrow...I'm not sure how tomorrow will be, I guess I should just see how it turns out.

I Might've Guessed That When...

Carol mentioned that her gas bill had come down it was probably time for another bill to drop on the mat...two arrived today from British Gas, the second was  to be added to the first and for 58 days they have charged me(and it's accurate because I gave meter readings)£146.26! The advisor thought that was quite good. That still works out at £2.52 per day. But he says that I am approx two thirds down on what we were spending when Mum was here.

He has suggested trying an on line tariff that offers 4% discount with British Gas for duel fuel...but then he said the cheapest deal can be obtained by doing gas/electric through Sainsbury's Energy(which is still run by British Gas)but it's still cheaper than signing up with them directly...

More things to consider...

I'm away to the bank to pay the bill, then at least I am upto date.

The next bill will probably be the electric(but that is approx £100 in credit)I don't know how either, so that may cover quite a lot of what it will be. A bit of a cushion. Then the phone bill(£130+ approx)

Then for a little while I may be left alone apart from sorting out the rent/probate/community tax situation...

Lucky that I still had just enough in the house to cover this bill and put aside for the telephone bill...

How Annoying Is This...

I have had to install another browser onto my computers because google won't support the explorer browser any more so without installing Crome I cannot write any posts...What a carry on. No warning, it just happened...

Monday, May 28, 2012

No Wonder That I Worry...

I have just come across the bill for what this house costs regarding the Community Charge for the year and the annual amount comes out £1,346.19 and when I come into Mum's small savings even with 25% discount that they say that I will be entitled to that will still  mean that I will have to find approx £1,010 and then approx £100 a week rent so altogether that will be around £6,200 annually.

Now that means Mum's money isn't going to last very long...I still have to find the money to pay for food and utility bills. Once I spend £1,000 I am already at the threshold where they say that I should be helped. But I believe you only get £1 for every £250 you drop under the threshold. So if one year like this will really affect how much help I get and how much I have in the bank...The sooner I get to talk to the CAB the better as just when I think that I am not doing too bad I see something like this and start to worry again...

How does anyone survive? I do hope that I can jeep a roof over my head or that I don't have bailiffs coming in taking my very few possessions away.

Most of what I own is second hand and years old, they'll not get much for any of what I have...

Phoned BT Today To Find Out...

When my final bill with them will arrive and approx how much...Approx a fortnight and that will still cost me around £130. Then I am free!

I've just had one of those milk shakes that you drink as a replacement meal, it wasn't too bad and at least I have the goodness of the milk but the powder has a lot of vitamins and minerals too(as much as a Complan)and I won't be doing without a meal, just have to decide what to have as the weather is still warm I may have a ham salad but I may add an egg and some potatoes...

I've Slept Reasonably Well...

but did not feel much like going on the net as I was literally just messing about with no purpose so I didn't!

I will make the effort to get up in an hour and do something but I feel a bit tender this morning and not as I should. I'm not depressed as such.

I managed to get through to my relative in Australia, stayed  on longer than planned but how often am I going to make a call like that? I couldn't trace his number on line even though he's in the phone book. Luckily by chance I found an old envelope that I had written his number on but still it failed and then just by luck I thought one number had been omitted from the code for the city he lives. I tried it and it worked!

All I am waiting for now is to find out what I owe for the call as I don't think that my package for calls includes international ones and I'll pay and restore my credit limit and then in theory it will stay that way...

I've been invited to go out to  Australia for a couple of weeks, I can't see it happening but it's nice to be asked! My relative lost his wife approx two and a half years ago...he may have the weather but I don't think  he's any better off financially than we are here in the UK and struggling just as much. He's not running a car but can access a good bus service. His tv is 20 years old and he does not take satellite/cable and he too is watching what he spends on electric and gas heating. He finds evenings and early mornings cold so has to wear warm clothes...even in Australia.

He was over here in December and hoped to get to see Mum but he had to use so many busses to get everywhere and renting a car was out, getting around easily had been the biggest problem when in the UK..

Sunday, May 27, 2012

I Don't Know How Heavy...

the data transferred from You Tube will be as I have avoided watching video on the Internet(by that I mean tv and films)via the various players in the UK.

I now see that many classic tv clips/shows of great performers not seen over here from old US shows featuring stars we'd only see in films or British stars appearing on TV in the States are available...So perhaps I have found something else to do on the Internet, these include appearances on This Is Your Life, What's My Line etc...pity that they cannot be saved...

But I'll watch in the early hours to avoid using up the allowance I have during the day which may not please others if it slows down the speeds...

I have asked my ISP what the situation is and been told "Go for it!" What I have used so far is seen as chickenfeed...

How Long Does It Take To Walk...

two streets? I timed myself today...after a visit to...the supermarket. I know, I know but that's where you see the most people and it gives you an objective, a reason for going out...I'm not sure that any were left but I forgot to buy some strawberries.

So it took me approx 35 minutes and that included me having to stop every so often...

I am now in a reflective mood, which I cannot help, I suppose I'll have such occasions for some time to come(I'd quite welcome a sleep)

I've had a drink of orange fruit juice diluted with water...and for now there's not much to do...not much on the radio(my favourite programmes resume around 8pm)I have run of places to look at on the internet. Well, if there's nothing that you need to be searching for, you end up visiting the same old sites...

You know really all I will be leaving of myself is this blog and even this doesn't use my real name...when I think how important Mum and Dad were and they touched so many lives over the years and yet there is nothing to show for it. I mean Mum did her voluntary work at a local school for years and also helping the elderly for a time too. Back in 1984 it was known as the Community Task Force. I think it included arranging for people to decorate the homes of pensioners(I think who were on low incomes)

It used people who were unemployed and some were possibly ex offenders of some kind and I think that they used people of all ages...however I just did a search and it still seems to exist or has been resurrected as a another one of those Government programmes to supposedly help people into work and where they pay those on the scheme as little as possible and it uses young people only now aged between 18-24 years of age.

I may dislike getting old and worry about the future but I really would hate having to face what many are in school and afterwards regarding trying to find work that pays anywhere near a decent wage.

And the State pension leaves much to be desired...I have no idea what mine will be...I have worked(not regularly)but I have. I have also attended many work programmes and I did jump through all  the hoops regarding looking for work and I am entitled to the help I receive due to illness and I have probably never claimed all that I could've/should've...that was probably true of the time when Mum was ill...and I also did over 15 years of voluntary work too.

I've Already Eaten...But Not Sticking To Set Times...

I had salad around 9pm yesterday...recently I haven't added egg or chips/potatoes to the ingredients, not always any meat either but I had a small Melton Mobrey pork pie...but there was grated chedder  cheese, tomato, lettuce, spring onions, cucumber...

Cost? Approx 80p

I awoke maybe around midnight and had another slightly smaller one but as a sandwich...

A bun, tomato, cheese and lettuce.

Cost? Approx 55p

So that's £1.35 in total(possibly as I drank more fruity drinks today it might've been nearer £2)

Then this morning not knowing what time it was(It's ages since I wore a wristwatch)perhaps I'll buy myself a cheap one again and a cheap wall clock for the other bedroom. Though I quite like those clocks that automatically change when we put the clocks forward and back...I bought Mum one a bit like a travel clock which I still have...

I digress...

It turned out that it was around 5am so at that time I was eating a large bowl of cereal with strawberries, blueberries and banana.

Cost? Approx 80p

I awoke around 9.30am always seem to do that on Sundays since Mum  passed away...and had a mug of coffee with two slices of toast and strawberry jam.

Cost? Approx 40p

So if I have nothing for most of the rest of the day...I'm doing ok. I may attempt an evening meal of vegetables, potatoes, sliced pork, Yorkshire puddings and gravy. It doesn't have to be difficult to prepare if you use frozen veg, Yorkshire puds that you warm up, gravy granules and sliced meat. It can be done in minutes...and you can cheat by opening a can of new potatoes.

The cost?  Approx £1

If I have a little treat afterwards and include what I drink it may creep up again towards £2 but that blog we mentioned on the previous post Never Seconds the school is charging £2 for one meal! I'm having anything between 1-3 meals and my portions are probably larger and spending no more.

Then again interesting that the same blog mentions African children having one meal and if I read correctly though we may get tired if we had to eat the same items day after day, if it kept you alive and nourished perhaps we wouldn't. I'm sure it said that their meal costs 6p per portion. But it contains rice, fish and vegetables...

I think that my budget though tight isn't too bad but of course we are governed by the prices the food costs in the shops and in turn by the amount of money we have to spend. If my benefits were reduced still further and many are worried what the future will bring I can see the variety of what I eat and how much being affected greatly perhaps then I will be eating baked beans at every opportunity(though they've been creeping up in price)

You can only cut back so far...that goes for those who work, are retired, ill or unemployed not just me...and I don't think that I eat a lot of processed food either...so I cannot be accused  of eating a lot of convenience foods which can be expensive...If I did have any I'll supplement it with foods that are not processed.

I hope that my meals can remain reasonably healthy and varied and not become boring. As important as food is to our well being and possibly how long we live. Sadly it it is often quite low down on our list of priorities, sometimes by choice, often it is foisted on us because of financial restraints(In other words)due to a lack of money.

Cooking for one is still strange...and some meals are probably pointless and possibly too expensive for one. I know that a full chicken is good value and you can do many meals but if it has to be used within days of cooking a lot of it will probably be wasted if it's a single household but then again as two chicken breasts can cost almost what a full chicken does which is false economy ...