I May Not Go To Bed Tonight!
I have such a lot to do.
I want the house as tidy as possible...out of respect for Mum and Me too I suppose whether I have a limited time here or not...
I have been told don't rush things, give "yourself" time to grieve.
Tomorrow is the funeral after all...
I'll tidy tonight and vacuum clean tomorrow probably in the morning.
I saw Mum one last time for approx 10 minutes and now she is a memory. I have taken the cards to go with my flowers to the florist and tomorrow morning I go to the shop to collect my single rose...
The flowers from America did not arrive today and are coming tomorrow to my house I am told, I hope they do otherwise they'll be too late.
I may get closure though it will be tough when the funeral is over. It draws a line under things I suppose.
I had to do some shopping a few minutes ago and wanted to walk home but it would be a struggle especially carrying the shopping.
Earlier on I asked how anyone can survive in our modern UK. I mean I need prescriptions to keep me alive and stablise my condition. If I lived in Wales or Scotland I'd get them for free I have found out until I come into Mum's money I am still as was so in theory my last prescription which I paid for was still free so I may try and get a refund or start my prepaid certificate at a later date. I'll give them a ring perhaps tomorrow they'll probably be closed at present.
So as I said I did a small shop all I purchased was...
Clover(Half Price)
Bread
Milk
Bread Buns(Two packs of six(total of twelve)for 95p
Spring Onions(Half price)
Tomatoes,
Lettuce(Half Price)
Bananas
Cheap eggs(10)
Cheap Lemonade
Potatoes
Half a Cucumber
That's a fairly basic shop you must agree so what do you think it cost me?
£14.42 and because mobility is poor I had to get a taxi so that added another £3...That's £17.42!
And I'll have to restrict how often I go out to avoid paying for a taxi...If I walk it takes forever and I do struggle but it just takes someone to say that I can walk and report me even though I am extremely slow and who knows what may happen. I could've done with another two taxi's today where I had to go but I tried to save the cost and it took ages to get where I wanted to be and I'm paying for it now that I am home again. But the £6 I saved you could say went towards the cost of my food.
We never went mad when I used to shop but with Mum's money we were able to eat well and buy some items that now I will have to think can I afford to. I know that I can't.
Considering that I have a condition and I want to eat decent food to avoid affecting my health am I really going to be stuck eating cheap foods(lower than own brand)Am I going to have to fill myself with bland food like milk and cereal, baked beans and other tinned items. Depend on having cold meals and sandwiches. Even cut back on a meal here and there?
No wonder some people are now going to food banks...It's frightening!
The clothes I have will last me years, I will use the washer as a last resort and may go back to handwashing more often again. I mainly wear trainers, I won't win any prizes for my elegance. And most of the white goods I have will be run into the ground before they are replaced. My carpets are old and many are worn but there's only me to please.
My priority is that I hope I can keep the electric and gas going and I will have to see what deals I can find and see if I can save some more money.
I want the house as tidy as possible...out of respect for Mum and Me too I suppose whether I have a limited time here or not...
I have been told don't rush things, give "yourself" time to grieve.
Tomorrow is the funeral after all...
I'll tidy tonight and vacuum clean tomorrow probably in the morning.
I saw Mum one last time for approx 10 minutes and now she is a memory. I have taken the cards to go with my flowers to the florist and tomorrow morning I go to the shop to collect my single rose...
The flowers from America did not arrive today and are coming tomorrow to my house I am told, I hope they do otherwise they'll be too late.
I may get closure though it will be tough when the funeral is over. It draws a line under things I suppose.
I had to do some shopping a few minutes ago and wanted to walk home but it would be a struggle especially carrying the shopping.
Earlier on I asked how anyone can survive in our modern UK. I mean I need prescriptions to keep me alive and stablise my condition. If I lived in Wales or Scotland I'd get them for free I have found out until I come into Mum's money I am still as was so in theory my last prescription which I paid for was still free so I may try and get a refund or start my prepaid certificate at a later date. I'll give them a ring perhaps tomorrow they'll probably be closed at present.
So as I said I did a small shop all I purchased was...
Clover(Half Price)
Bread
Milk
Bread Buns(Two packs of six(total of twelve)for 95p
Spring Onions(Half price)
Tomatoes,
Lettuce(Half Price)
Bananas
Cheap eggs(10)
Cheap Lemonade
Potatoes
Half a Cucumber
That's a fairly basic shop you must agree so what do you think it cost me?
£14.42 and because mobility is poor I had to get a taxi so that added another £3...That's £17.42!
And I'll have to restrict how often I go out to avoid paying for a taxi...If I walk it takes forever and I do struggle but it just takes someone to say that I can walk and report me even though I am extremely slow and who knows what may happen. I could've done with another two taxi's today where I had to go but I tried to save the cost and it took ages to get where I wanted to be and I'm paying for it now that I am home again. But the £6 I saved you could say went towards the cost of my food.
We never went mad when I used to shop but with Mum's money we were able to eat well and buy some items that now I will have to think can I afford to. I know that I can't.
Considering that I have a condition and I want to eat decent food to avoid affecting my health am I really going to be stuck eating cheap foods(lower than own brand)Am I going to have to fill myself with bland food like milk and cereal, baked beans and other tinned items. Depend on having cold meals and sandwiches. Even cut back on a meal here and there?
No wonder some people are now going to food banks...It's frightening!
The clothes I have will last me years, I will use the washer as a last resort and may go back to handwashing more often again. I mainly wear trainers, I won't win any prizes for my elegance. And most of the white goods I have will be run into the ground before they are replaced. My carpets are old and many are worn but there's only me to please.
My priority is that I hope I can keep the electric and gas going and I will have to see what deals I can find and see if I can save some more money.
posted by The Great Gildersleeve | 7:37 pm
5 Comments:
You must get some sleep tonight, or you'll be too tired to cope with the funeral tomorrow.
Anon, I probably will get a couple of hours but get up earlier than normal. I may go in the next few minutes. I can sleep when I come home...and once home say around 4pm I have all the time I need to sleep. It will seem strange.
Then I have nothing to do until going to the CAB for advice on 8th May, I suspect they'll just tell me what I have been told already.
But it will be clear!
Maybe I can take the weekend and Bank Holiday and just rest. All departments that could hassle me about money and the future will be closed.
If I go I have an appointment with my Dr on Wednesday 9th where I was thinking of starting to get some of my own medical problems seen to.
I know I need my teeth fixing and may need to get some dentures. A hernia fixed and that will require a stay in hospital and perhaps get my eyes tested. And some new glasses.
Why don't you buy yourself a cheap mobility scooter ? it would soon pay for all your taxi fares.
You might have to pay for your dentures if you've still got your Mother's money.
You never know...that would reduce Mum's money...
I may get my dentistry done before probate is passed or again it will just reduce Mum's money...
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