What A Boring Day!
Though I am not bored as such myself but it is absolutely lashing down with rain. So a look out is out of the question. I'm not into football so for the next few weeks I will have to find an alternative when the European Championships are carried on radio or tv just as I will when the Olympics start from London in July.
I've eaten some cereal and banana, lots of orange juice with water, weak coffee and may finish that turkey with tomato in a wholemeal bun(if I have nothing else today, its enough)I'll not starve...The truth is...I was eating a turkey sandwich at 5am this morning :-)
I think I'll keep warm on my bed and listen to music programmes once shared with Mum and just prepare myself for Sunday and Mum's special day/service...
I have found little to give me a reason to surf on the internet and if I do, it will be just for the sake of it...
The most heart warming story I found today is both sweet but sad. Two sisters who met up at the Nursing Home where the eldest on lives as a surprise, they seem quite sprightly but again, if it was me I'd be depressed especially having to have everything done for me...one is 108 and the other is 105. Sadly, no matter what they do, we know all too well what the future holds. Being a sensitive person it just gets to me...
It's strange isn't it. Many of these kind of people probably had very hard lives and lived through so much where money and food was limited, work was hard and there were health epidemics, events like World Wars etc...and yet they live to such an age...
Even my grandma almost made it to 100 and one of her sisters managed to reach 103. If they been around now they'd have been older than these sisters by a lot. But in age my Grandma out lived three of her children by a reasonable amount...50 years, 14 years and 14 years.
If Mum's brother's go in the next couple of years(Of course we hope not)she will have actually lived longer than all of her children. I know because of when she was born she would always have gone first but in actual years she will have lived longer...
I've eaten some cereal and banana, lots of orange juice with water, weak coffee and may finish that turkey with tomato in a wholemeal bun(if I have nothing else today, its enough)I'll not starve...The truth is...I was eating a turkey sandwich at 5am this morning :-)
I think I'll keep warm on my bed and listen to music programmes once shared with Mum and just prepare myself for Sunday and Mum's special day/service...
I have found little to give me a reason to surf on the internet and if I do, it will be just for the sake of it...
The most heart warming story I found today is both sweet but sad. Two sisters who met up at the Nursing Home where the eldest on lives as a surprise, they seem quite sprightly but again, if it was me I'd be depressed especially having to have everything done for me...one is 108 and the other is 105. Sadly, no matter what they do, we know all too well what the future holds. Being a sensitive person it just gets to me...
It's strange isn't it. Many of these kind of people probably had very hard lives and lived through so much where money and food was limited, work was hard and there were health epidemics, events like World Wars etc...and yet they live to such an age...
Even my grandma almost made it to 100 and one of her sisters managed to reach 103. If they been around now they'd have been older than these sisters by a lot. But in age my Grandma out lived three of her children by a reasonable amount...50 years, 14 years and 14 years.
If Mum's brother's go in the next couple of years(Of course we hope not)she will have actually lived longer than all of her children. I know because of when she was born she would always have gone first but in actual years she will have lived longer...
posted by The Great Gildersleeve | 5:44 pm
9 Comments:
I hope all goes well on Sunday, Gildy.
I'm off to South Devon early tomorrow morning. It's probably raining there too but at least we shall be enjoying fish straight out of the sea.
See you in a week. Behave yourself and take care!
Thank you VQ,
Try and get a good night's sleep and I do hope you have lovely time and a safe journey.
Thank you for your kind thoughts I will do my best to make you proud of me and I hope when you return I am still of a positive frame of mind.
Take Care
Gildy xx
I'm in a nostalgic mood, they're playing music hall songs on the radio and no doubt I'd have been singing along to them with Mum...oh well!
Have a nice time VQ, It will be nice for you to have some company and a change of menu.
Gildy I hope it all goes well on Sunday though it will be sad for you.
VQ. Have a lovely break. Maybe you will get some good weather? Fingers crossed.
Anthony unless I have missed it, I have seen no mention of the lauded halogen oven. How are you getting on with it?
I shall go into media hibernation over the Euro/Olympics. It was hard to find anything to download from LBC that was not about the Jubilee. As each presenter carries on with the same subject it can get a bit tedious.
Cx
I'm in a different phase Carol. I don't understand it myself but I am not constantly thinking of Mum. Is that right? Is it my way of coping? Has mind suddenly decided to accept things?
Of course I miss her and would have Mum here with me at the drop of a hat.
Sunday may give me more closure but it will be strange. I find it difficult to think the service is for Mum and its Mum'ms name I will be hearing.
If I leave it too long I'll have no choice and all seats will have gone...it's over 20 years since I attended the local theatre, if I go I'll have two taxi's and a ticket and not much change from £50 but at the end of October Joe Brown is doing a one night stand and it's a fair bet that he could possibly sing the song I played for Mum as the service ended "I'll see you in my dreams"
If I buy the ticket now I've 5 months to claim that back.
I'll be honest this past week I've been living on fruit, cereal and sandwiches but I will get around to using it.
I need to study it a bit more.
Oh I had some streaky bacon butties tonight with brown sauce, a treat, its been quite some time since I did that.
I'm sure like you I can avoid the sports overload but radio may be more difficult than television because LBC and BBC Radio 4 and 5 will be saturated.
I can switch to music stations but even now my music shows are only on at certain times so I may just play music or recordings from my own vast collection.
Perhaps I'll find something on the net.
Hope you are ok :-)
Thank you for your kind thoughts, everybody.
I don't think there's much chance of getting a sun tan but at least the sea air will be good.
Back in seven days.
I used to love a train journey. I can spend hours just looking out to sea...
Enjoy the rest...
Oh I love going on train journeys too. So exciting. Especially with a packed lunch!
Anthony whatever you feel, just feel it.
My moods go up and down all the time and I am not coping with a huge loss like you are. Looking back when my Mum died, I am sure I felt like you do. And you do stop thinking of them all the time in the end.
Little things bring back memories, like Birds Eye products, Estee Lauder youth dew perfume.
Most of all I am so glad I was able to make all my peace with my Mum before she died. I know you had that.
Life can be a struggle daily. Yet there is so much joy to be had if we will only open our eyes. I have had a few days of work and pottering around my home and de cluttering is one of my greatest joys.
Is it awful to say that I wish I was a stay at home housewife!?
Keeping house, getting a meal ready for a a hard working man, even having his slippers ready!!
There was a wonderful programme on during the week about a 1950's home and it bought back so many memories.
Cx
I so agree with everything you have said Carol.
Why should we feel guilty because we do something that others don't or feel we are wrong.
Of course women working brought freedom for many, stopped "some" men dominating the home/relationship.
Its a big topic and lots to think about but how many had to go out because the extra money was needed.
Many were happy to stay at home and what they did was every bit as important to the success of the home and the country.
I'm sure children were happier in general rather than in many cases being Latch key kids...
A lot of our individuality has been taken from us and the media is as much to blame and the politicians we now have and their policies.
Ah yes all the things Mum will no longer buy or I will no longer get on her behalf, I was quite an expert on buying the make up she liked. Never having to buy a birthday, Mother's Day card again.
There's quite a few shops or departments I will have no reason to use ever again...
There's no hurry to clear everything of Mum's out of sight, there's not much to move anyhow.
Once I hang Mum's clothes in the wardrobe properly one day they may go to charity but when the door is closed, they're doing no harm. I'm not going to keep spending hours looking at them.
Yes it will be the little things that will bring back memories.
A lot of Mum's jumpers can be worn by me to keep warm, now they can be a comfort.
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