The Day After Mum's Funeral Part One...
I have started contacting people who were at the funeral and asked if I acknowledged them and thanked them for attending. Overall they have said the service was lovely and it was a privilege to be there and I did very well(not that I want praise)and I was able to have a word with everyone who was there as they left the service.
I managed to get some sleep. Better than I thought I may but I found my mind wandering and think I was also dreaming of Mum but it was probably more like a little nightmare. I had to get up.
And now what?
What can any of us do in our homes? There is something about sharing a meal, watching TV or listening to the radio or music with someone else.
Now, I could perhaps read a book maybe I should invest in an electronic book reader if there are plenty of books to be read but that's no good if I have to pay for them if I am watching what I spend, are there plenty of free books to be downloaded? Are they any good?
I managed to get some sleep. Better than I thought I may but I found my mind wandering and think I was also dreaming of Mum but it was probably more like a little nightmare. I had to get up.
And now what?
What can any of us do in our homes? There is something about sharing a meal, watching TV or listening to the radio or music with someone else.
Now, I could perhaps read a book maybe I should invest in an electronic book reader if there are plenty of books to be read but that's no good if I have to pay for them if I am watching what I spend, are there plenty of free books to be downloaded? Are they any good?
posted by The Great Gildersleeve | 11:44 am
3 Comments:
I am not related to the other 'anons' but when I had my loss I really had no interest in TVs, music,mobile phones or whatever. The TV was on, just to fill the place with noise, I had no idea what the hell was on it,I could not have cared less, material things just seemed so useless and frivolous.
I spent the time with an also elderly Aunt,she helped me get through it, even if it was just doing little jobs for her,but she listened that helped me too.
I'm another Anon who did just that. It may sound daft, but there were people about. I din't watch, but as I moved about I was conscious of them. I needed to see/hear people, but then I got involved with things around me, and did some voluntary work.
Guess what Anon 1...
That's me...I've bought a tv because the old one is on the blink and I know one day I may watch something again...in my case I still have not watched any TV since Mum passed away and hadn't seen much in the last three or four years for various reasons but mainly due Mum being ill and so on.
For me its the radio I have on a lot and why because its a voice and something in the background.
If a comedy show comes on the radio its difficult to understand how anyone can be laughing and having fun.
Material things do seem unimportant and frivolous. Never mind about seem...they are! In fact today when I was shopping I wondered if Mum was better off out of this world, as we all struggle and in work or out of work you wondering if you can pay the bills, whether you'll keep your job.
And then if you are guinely sick they're after you and lump you in with the few fiddlers and scroungers.
Don't forget when I come into Mum's money that ain't going far and I have to account for all that I spend so the little I have now is being used to buy things I may not be able to in the future and what I buy has to last me.
You know that I am not buying carpets but I could do with a mattress and perhaps a new sofa.
To some extent my release is music...but even that can make me sad if certain tunes come on the radio or I play them from my collection on the pc.
Perhaps I'll be able to access more music online when the Broadband kicks in as in future I may be able to listen but not buy much.
I had to add a taxi fare on top as I cannot walk very well and not with shopping but I went round Tesco and bought as many of their new everyday value range to save money. To stay warm I went into a cahrity shop and purchased two jumpers and cardigan.
Not very thick one's but on top of something else they'll help keep me warm and I can always wear all three at once. There were lots of shirts but they are not going to keep warm.
Another time I'll look on the racks of Women's clothing I don't care what they look like as long they keep me warm and anything like a jumper or sweatshirt will do.
And everything in Barnadoes is 99p.
The thing that has kept me sane at present is banging away on the pc writing all this...
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